“How did you end up doing this work?”

The words that flowed out of me when I was asked this question of “How did you end up doing this work?” and it led me into my WHY…

Well,

because I was wandering the world wondering how to feel like I belonged.

Not only in the world or in society- but to myself.

How to feel that belonging in my own body. To not run away. To not feel like I was fucked up just because I felt things so deeply. Just because I had a dream that felt bigger than what I saw around me. Just because I felt the gnawing pit in my stomach feeling like what everyone else was doing- wasn’t my path.

I am doing this work for the parts of ourselves that squashed our souls into boxes they were never meant to fit in. I am doing this work for the parts of ourselves that just wanted to be loved. I am doing this work because I fall madly in love with people who are real and let their spirit dance through a room and their tender heart lie naked on the table for everyone to see- even when they’re terrified it’s going to roll off onto the floor and shatter. 

I do this work because I want to fall in love with everyone. I want the love we have for each other to transform this earth. 

I do this for our strong hearts that although feel pain, can also be picked up again, by our own two hands- and held. 

I do this to teach others how to hold their hearts. How to hold their desires, their dreams, their passions, their fears, their insecurities. 

I do this because if we don’t own up to ourselves, if we don’t get real with ourselves, how can we keep complaining about partners, family, presidents or others not being honest with us, not treating us with respect, not showing up for us fully-  if we aren’t even being real and in integrity with ourselves and our own Truth?  

I do this work because it starts with us. I do this work because there is a micro and macro vision. I want you to live a life that when your head hits the pillow at night you say, “holy shit, I’m doing it! I am living my life so full out and I am present for it all.” 

I do this work because I want to help the world. This planet. This earth. For it’s never going to change and move into alignment for the greater good of all if we as individuals don’t look at where our own lives are out of alignment. 

And that shit isn’t always easy to look at. 

Parts of us want to stay stuck because sticking our neck- or our heart- out there gives it a chance of it being hurt or broken. 

They say “It may not be safe”, “we may not be loved” or” we may not belong”- and that’s scary. 

I do this work because the fear of what my life would look like not living my truth started to outweigh the fears my ego liked to tell me to keep me small- and safe.

I do this work to share that it isn’t all love and light, and it also isn’t all pain and darkness. I do this work to bring that shadow toward the light- dance with it, move with it, make love to it–  and see it transfigure, transform, and transmute into our power. 

I do this work because all the parts that we were taught were shameful or taboo- our sexuality, our body, our fear, our shadows, our desires– are actually our greatest teacher, our greatest healer, and our greatest superpower. 

I do it because we don’t need one person to save the world. We need all of us coming together to save ourselves. And then, and only then, can we go out in the world and be the best human we can be. We need a planet of integrated, compassionate humans. Who understand themselves so they can understand others. Who listen to themselves so they can truly listen to others. 

And it starts with listening and having compassion for the parts of yourself that you were taught to be ashamed of and hide away.

I do this work because I found belonging, safety and love in such a way I didn’t even think was possible.

And I want that for you.

So yes, I do this work because it found me as I searched for my belonging and Truth. And now I desire you to feel the power that comes from seeing, feeling and deeply knowing that all parts of you are welcome and belong. 

And I am here to witness you in your Becoming and in your coming home- to yourself, to your body, to your Truth. 

I’m ready. Are you?

With all my love,

KR